I quit my job a little over 6 months ago. I don't have as much to show for it as I'd like to. There are things I want to do, but that I haven't done. There are projects I didn't think I would do but I did. In retrospect I think some part of me was just "hoping" that I would have created out some financially stable and self-sufficient project.

Prior to quitting, I didn't really have any projects in mind, but I didn't worry about it as I was pretty confident some idea would come along.

For the first three months or so of the year I was travelling. Despite having a good amount of savings from work, I felt afraid of losing or wasting too much money. Is it greedy to want to be financially secure and not want to work? I feel lazy. Even right now I'm writing this because of some mixture of laziness to do some "real work" and the "desire" to publish another blog post along with some pictures.

I have so many entries across my different journalling mechanisms (paper, reMarkable, markdown, this website) of my complaining (and almost whining) about my lack of progress/determination/use of time.

I do think, however, that I have more of a goal than I have had in a long time. After travelling throughout Europe, spending some time in NYC and New Jersey, I think I want to find a way to have a place here in Hawaii.

And immediately after writing it down I wonder, "is it true?".

I do have an idea, that I think could make some money, and could cover my costs and more. I just need to sit down and do it. Waiting will just make it worse.